When You Leave, Stay...

It's been over 2 months since I deleted my social media I needed a break.
Carried all the heavy baggage of the past it was time for me to escape.
If you live in the fads you may mistake my timing as late. 
Missed moments bundled with fumbled opportunities I still have so much to say.

It gets lonely on this side of town.
Baby girl blocked me but she still wants to hear my sound.
I spent my whole life trying to make Mrs.Kathy proud.
I spent my whole life wishing she had more than one child.

As I lay here with a broken ankle, jaded feelings,
I isolated myself so much it's hard for the closest people to stay near me.
I have trust issues and anxiety when I feel happy life gets eerie.
So many obstacles in front of me it keeps me in my feelings.

Some of my closest friends hit the unsubscribe button.
I guess to them I wasn't doing enough and saying a lot of nothing.
It hurts even more when the loss of faith comes from cousins.
So many of my plans and promises fell through, it's always something.

In the comfort of the seats in the back I took steps back.
The pressure wasn't too much but the straw was breaking the camel's back.
In fact, I started to lose interest in the world, every thing was just stats.
I needed to relax, but I'm not gone, I will bounce back...

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