I Apologize If My Love Is Toxic

My love may be toxic, always blessed with many options...
​Bred in a broken home, I grew numb to love I was heartless.
Trapped in the middle, from the outside looking in I had it all. 
From playing ball, to seeing my pictures in magazines at the mall, their jealousy wanted me to fall.
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My love may be toxic, I'm always on the go and I barely call...
Grew up resenting my mom but as I matured I realized I had my father's flaws.
Now I understand.
​She loved me so much she wanted me to become a better man, I thought he was the man.
I didn't understand...

Like father like son, I retreat.
If I don't know you, I rarely speak.
But once you get to know me I'll be one of the most unique energies you'll ever meet.
​I hold a lot in because not everything deserves to be leaked.

My love may be toxic, I am my mom's only child.
I am calm but in my blood it can get wild.
Inherited intuition, I can easily make you smile.
Misunderstood passion, I am cautious, I can easily get direct filed.

My love may be toxic, I apologize for my future actions.
So much trauma, you may not comprehend everything that happens.
I deal with so much BS, sometimes behind closed doors you'll see me snappin.
You may see my images but misread my captions.

I apologize if my love is toxic...

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